You’ve got to go slow below the surface….and easy through the waves, you’ve got to make a stand….while you still can

-Dan Fogelberg:  Slow Below the surface

You can really tell who cares about  you when the bad times come. Right now I am sitting in the (warm) cabin of El Caribe II as the storm outside and inside rages.

I am alone.

Please though do not feel sorry or embarrassed for me. This has only hastened my resolve to clear out of this ugly winter port and go somewhere else, somewhere warm.

Christmas is an ugly time too, but I wish for all of who have things to lose to consider that and take it to heart.  Perhaps I did not do so soon enough. Perhaps I found it hard to trust the direction of the wind, or the song of the sea or the fact that I did have a few things worth staying for. In retrospect perhaps the child in me did not see that.  

Perhaps.

It will soon be time for me to learn to singlehand, to put things on the shelf and to search for stories godknowswhere.

It was a fun ride, and one that I would not trade, only make a few better choices than I did.

I am thankful though for what I had and what I have.

In the end a person has only themselves.

If I have disappointed any of you, please forgive me.